This one is a bit more serious than usual.
My belief is that, as string theory suggests, everything is made up of the same energy so me, you, your shoes, my thoughts, the electricity that creates the image on your screen and even what seems like emptiness in space is all exactly the same energy at its core.
I like to think of it like ice cubes in a pool of water surrounded by steam. All made up of the same stuff but in different forms. I believe that, that stuff is God. The all encompassing energy that is everything, it is existence.
Therefore if you think God is judging you or controlling your life it's kinda true because you are judging yourself and controlling your own life. If you want God to have a plan for you then you must create one for yourself. If you ever think God wants you to do something that you don't wanna do... he doesn't, unless it's your mom asking you to take out the trash. We can't rely on him to save the world, we must take responsibility ourselves. You can't blame God for making you do something because you decided to do it and you are the one who did it.
We are divinity, we are God there is no end and there was no beginning. Everything has always and will always exist just in different forms. Treat others kindly, don't fear death and enjoy your time in this form. Respect others as you would like to be respected.